I am going through issues with my mom. Our relationship has always been a complicated one.

I was talking to a friend, last night and she said some illuminating shit w/r/t my mom and me..

“The thing about your mom is that, she’s always been supportive of your dreams as long as it allowed you to stay within her control. Anytime you were in a place or a space where it would mean you going beyond and away from her, she wasn’t having it. That’s the issue.”

And it was like, a light went on. Cause my mom would always say, why isn’t the fact that I believe on you enough? And I would never really trust her when she said those things and I couldn’t understand why and looking back I realized that although she might say that (my mom is not a self aware person) she didn’t really believe that.

ugh.